i know it's corny to use lyrics as subject titles, but i like to type in whatever is floating thru my head when i put my fingetips to keys. so today, it's some ben folds five lyrics ( Read more... )

Proud To Be An Old LadyEveryone has a plan for themselves. Even if the makes it with indifference and blatant recklessness, everyone has a place where they would like to end up. The perfect job you daydream about while half-heartedly plugging away at your current one. Someday you will have that picturesque view of the sea/mountains/city skyline ( Read more... )

ya know, i thought walking into my living room and seeing amber and blake pawing at each other would make me feel pretty bad, but i'm really okay. I decided to acknowledge my jealousy and realize that it's only self-destructive. It is also destructive to my relationships with Amber and Blake. I mean, I can't make him like me, so, it's not like ( Read more... )

hmm...i was feeling good a minute ago, then i read a bit of amanda's journal and instantly felt responsible... am i a bad person? am i distant? cold? heartless? self-absorbed? guilty? sarcastic ( Read more... )

yes kids...i'm feeling much better. i wrote in my real journal last night, for the first time in months. it felt really nice. i'm starting to understand what's best, and that sometimes the losses aren't as bad as they seem. not that it's not important to me, but it's more important to let things go and allow situations to grow into what they ( Read more... )